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I met my husband about 6 years ago and we got pregnant about a year into our relationship. He is 4 now and such an amazing kid! We have been struggling to have a successful pregnancy for 2 years now, with 4 miscarriages all in the first tri-mester

What does it all mean??

TTC= trying to conceive

BBT= basal body temperature

HPT= home pregnancy test

OPK= ovulation predictor kit

BFP= big fat positive (what we want!)

BFN= big fat negative (what we loathe...)




What's been going on?

Dec 2004: Met Derek at a friends birthday dinner (and didn't like him lol!)

Feb 2006: Conceived Owen by surprise

Sept 22, 2006: Derek and I got married

Nov 6, 2006: Owen was born!

Nov 2008: Decide to TTC for #2

Jan 2009: Longest cycle ever, take HPT and got a BFP. Go to dr and find out we're mid miscarriage

May 2009: BFP!

June 2009: Go to DR for first OB appointment to find no heartbeat, off to hospital for D&C. Told to wait 3 months before TTC again

Dec 2009: BFP and one week later start bleeding, miscarriage #3

Jan 2010: Go in to see DR, check blood and all organs working well, and ovulating well.

April 2010: Another BFP. About a week later start bleeding again, miscarriage #4.

May 2010: Talk to my DR, has me wait 6 months before TTC again.

Sept 2010: Go to follow up with DR, has me start taking prenatal vitamins, baby asprin and progesterone 48 hours after ovulation (to take until my cycle starts, or reach 13 weeks in a pregnancy)

March 7th 2011: BFP!!!!! (over the next few days I ended up taking 4 tests to be for sure positive)

April 4th 2011: First OB appointment... saw lil baby on ultrasound and STRONG heartbeat of 175 bpm.

June 27th 2011: Second ultrasound, we're having a lil boy!

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Wednesday, December 22, 2010

a rough day

Once again, I'm left with this horrible feeling... this time I'm not the one who lost a baby. It was a friend of mine. She's worked so hard and put so much effort, prayers and money into conceiving this baby... and only to lose it. It breaks my heart. I have cried for her and then find myself feeling all of the same emotions I get when I have a miscarriage. I doubt God, I get mad, and lose any gumption I once had. I don't want to lose faith that God can and will do amazing things for both of us, but with this being her second miscarriage and with me having 4... I feel like almost all faith is lost. Why?? She's an amazing person who deserves all of the babies she wants and she's had 2 so horribly taken from her! It just makes me angry...
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  1. StephanieDecember 23, 2010 at 10:08 PM

    My turn to cry.
    I'm so thankful for you, and your tears.

    I find myself calling BS on myself. All the women I've helped/encouraged over the years, and here I am not believing any of it. Yes I'm a bit sulky at the moment, and have only cried out in anger to God, but I gotta get out of this fog.
    HE is the creator of Life, He knows the joys of our heart, the joy of our hearts is to be pregnant again and yet we get it taken from us. WHY?! Why us. We are children of Him, why does he allow this?

    We need to hang. I'll likely cry though. Fair warning.

    Love

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