2+2=4

Ya... I've gained 2 more pounds... not happy. I know that for 11 weeks 4 pounds isn't bad, but I am SO beyond scared to gain too much weight. With Owen, I gained 38 pounds and I would prefer to not gain over 25 this time. So, I looked online to see which yoga poses to avoid during pregnancy so I can keep doing my yoga dvd's and not buy new prenatal ones. I also laced up my running shoes for the first time in about 5 weeks. I got Owen on his bike and he rode and I ran for about 1.26 miles... not much, but it's a start. Plus, Owen can't go as far as I can run. Anyways... I'm finally getting some energy back and I want to be active until I give birth. I'm also not so crazy hungry today (this could be different tomorrow!)... hopefully I wake up feeling good and not sore!

I've also researched which Weight Watchers meeting will work for us after this baby is born. Even if I only gain 25 pounds, I still need to lose more. When we started trying for a baby I was only about 5 pounds above my Weight Watchers goal weight. Now, I'm about 20 ugh. These last 2 years have made me just not care about my weight... not good!

11 weeks

Baby is the size of a lime this week! I can't believe it... that seems big to me already lol! I'm still fairly tired, although I do get bouts of energy here and there. I'm also still nauseous and eating ALL the time... I'm surprised still that I've only gained 2 pounds! I totally forgot about this stage of pregnancy when you just feel fat. It's not the funnest, but I'm gonna enjoy it, because eventually I will be huge! I always heard that you show earlier in your pregnancy with the second baby and I'm believing them now! I have been pregnant 6 times, but only this far with my son and with this pregnancy, and now I've got a gut lol!

On Monday I turn 29. I'm not even sure if we have any plans to do anything on that day... hopefully dinner with my family and some relaxing :]

Last night

Last night, I was watching one of my favorite shows, Sex and the City. It was the "Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda" episode where Miranda finds out she's pregnant and wants to have an abortion. All 4 girls were at breakfast and Charlotte (who had been TTC for 5 months) had just started her period. She was frustrated and angry when Miranda spilled the beans. She got really mad and defensive and stormed away from the restaurant. I felt so badly for Charlotte... I've been there SO many times. I've been the one trying for 2.5 years to have a girl who doesn't even know when she ovulates get pregnant on the first try. I've been the one where a friend doesn't even realize she's pregnant until 6 weeks along because "woops, I'm late??" It's hard... I know so many girls who've been and are still going through these issues with the massive amounts of girls who are pregnant around them. My heart still breaks for them.

I think that people assume that because I'm pregnant now, the past doesn't affect me. That it's ok that another girl is pregnant by accident. It still hurts. It's still hard to see girls not even have to put effort into getting pregnant. The past miscarriages and months of trying still affects me. I am so happy I'm pregnant now, but it doesn't diminish my journey what so ever.

Anyways, a bit of a rant... but definitely my feelings. Hang in there ladies who are still TTC, I'm praying for you and I'm here for you... I know what you're going through.

like clockwork

Every night I've been waking up anywhere between 1 and 5. And I'm usually up for at least 2 hours. Sometimes even having to eat. This has been super hard on me, especially when Owen wakes up at 6:30am. I tried cutting out my naps, but it's not been helping at all. I hope that it gets better, but if it doesn't I guess I'll just get used to it.

On another note. I asked my neighbor to borrow her old infant seat for a few minutes to see if it fits well in the car we're looking at buying. She kinda looked at me and said "Well, you can't borrow it cause I need it for my baby" haha! That was her sly way of telling me she's pregnant! And the funny thing is, is that she's 16 weeks along! Dang... I can't imagine keeping it a secret that long. I'm super excited for her. I got a little twinge of envy though because her oldest is almost 2 and will be 2 1/2 when this new baby is born. I really wish Owen had a sibling closer in age, but after talking with her about how much rest she doesn't get, I'm glad I have such a self sufficient 4 1/2 year old! God's plans are the best... better than we could even imagine and I can't doubt why he does what he does :]


** Update as of 4/21/11:: I slept through the night last night! Got up once to go to the bathroom and fell right back to sleep! Praise the LORD!

10 weeks

So, baby is this big... the site didn't say what this was, so I'm gonna guess a prune?? Haha! I've been exhausted, but trying to keep the house up since I have let it go recently. Also, I've been able to ward off the nausea a bit. I get super nauseous when I'm hungry. As soon as I eat, it's gone.

We have family from Texas coming to visit the end of the month and I'm not gonna lie, I'm not looking forward to it. I'm looking forward to seeing them because it's been a while, but I haven't had overnight guests ever! I've been having a hard time keeping the house clean since I'm so tired and the idea of having to keep up with 4 extra people makes me even more tired. Lord help me! (that's the ONLY way I'm gonna get through it!)

9 weeks

Today I am 9 weeks pregnant. It's kind of a big milestone for me, because I've not gotten this far in a pregnancy in 5 years. I still have all of my symptoms, exhaustion, nausea, extreme hunger, lower back pain, sore breasts, weird dreams etc. I feel like I constantly have the flu, with feeling weak and nauseous... but it's a price I'm willing to pay for a healthy baby :]

I am going to try to blog weekly on how I'm doing and how this pregnancy is going. Also, a photo of how big the baby is with a comparison. Here it is... week 9!

this one's different

I've been pregnant a total of 6 times now. Each one was pretty similar really. With Owen I was way more tired than the following 4, but never sick. With this pregnancy, I'm constantly exhausted and nauseous. I'm not complaining at all because this means things are working correctly. I'm just not used to dealing with the nausea. I have a stock of ginger ale in my fridge and my poor sweet husband is getting leftovers tonight simply because I can't stomach the idea of making dinner. Friends are saying "maybe it's a girl!" all because it's so different, but really... I don't care if it's a boy or a girl, as long as it's full term and healthy! I pray to God continually for the health and safety of this baby... since we got to see the little thing, I'm super attached.

Oh! And on another note, my sweet lil guy has been amazing... he keeps saying that he's so happy I'm gonna have a baby, which just makes my heart swell. He's also been pretty understanding of my laziness, and just hangs out with me. We've become the couch people lately... thank God he's being a good boy!

our lil secret

Yep, we're pregnant! I'm 7 weeks 6 days today :] We have been keeping it a secret since we've been through so much. Not even our parents knew! We had our first OB appointment this morning and I was a wreck. I was super nervous and when the Dr came in I even cried because I was so scared. She was just so sweet and did the ultrasound first to ease my mind. We saw the little one all teeny and saw it's heartbeat an also got to hear the heartbeat. A strong 175 beats per minute. I can't tell you how excited we all are. Owen keeps telling me "mommy, I'm so glad you're gonna have a baby!" Such a sweetie. This baby is due November 15th 2011 :] Thank you everyone for all of your prayers and support through all of this, any additional prayers during this pregnancy are greatly appreciated.