Last night

Last night, I was watching one of my favorite shows, Sex and the City. It was the "Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda" episode where Miranda finds out she's pregnant and wants to have an abortion. All 4 girls were at breakfast and Charlotte (who had been TTC for 5 months) had just started her period. She was frustrated and angry when Miranda spilled the beans. She got really mad and defensive and stormed away from the restaurant. I felt so badly for Charlotte... I've been there SO many times. I've been the one trying for 2.5 years to have a girl who doesn't even know when she ovulates get pregnant on the first try. I've been the one where a friend doesn't even realize she's pregnant until 6 weeks along because "woops, I'm late??" It's hard... I know so many girls who've been and are still going through these issues with the massive amounts of girls who are pregnant around them. My heart still breaks for them.

I think that people assume that because I'm pregnant now, the past doesn't affect me. That it's ok that another girl is pregnant by accident. It still hurts. It's still hard to see girls not even have to put effort into getting pregnant. The past miscarriages and months of trying still affects me. I am so happy I'm pregnant now, but it doesn't diminish my journey what so ever.

Anyways, a bit of a rant... but definitely my feelings. Hang in there ladies who are still TTC, I'm praying for you and I'm here for you... I know what you're going through.