I have had one rough week... I wanted to not think about the possibility of being pregnant and boy have I been reminded that I'm not (that I know of). People who I thought would be there for me during everything... ups and downs just are sweeping me under the rug. I mean, I don't need to be doted on, but a little understanding would be nice. I've put myself and my struggles aside for so many friends and family who are pregnant or were pregnant over the last 2 years... attending baby showers, going to see babies when they're born, and even throwing showers/sprinkles. To be told I'm bitter and angry makes me just want to walk away. I don't expect people to fully understand or take pity on me... just a listening ear would be great.
On a more positive note, I am hoping to test on Monday... I am exhausted today, I'm not sure if it's from all the crying I did yesterday or something else?? ;] I'm also trying to get my rear to the gym more often and eat better... these progesterone pills have me packing on pounds. ugh. OH well, it will be more than worth it to have a successful pregnancy!
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I feel ya. And I too, HATE progesterone. It's the worst. We're talkin layin down on the bed to zip my pants ;)
ReplyDeleteAnyways, I'm praying for you, you are not forgotten, just focus on the great friends you do have and are there for you, I'd had to do that as well.
thank you Steph... it's great to have a friend like you who gets it :]
ReplyDeleteI need to remind you what you endurred. Your best friend had a successful pregnancy and delivered her baby on April 24th. You were There for her. You were THERE.
ReplyDeleteThis makes me mad. So what if you are bitter and angry. You have the right to be. But you chose to be there. You did not run. You snuggled up that sweet little boy and Loved him. No bitterness. No anger. Just Love. (and if you were bitter and angry I did not notice)
Thank you Steph... it's just really hard having people think I'm being selfish, when I'm just hurting. Hopefully they won't ever understand what kind of hurt I've been through...
ReplyDeleteI've got a lot going on in 2011 and I'm excited for all of it... baby or no baby, there's a lot to be thankful for!